The Scientist and the Angry Atheists

Hello everyone!

It has been some time since I have posted anything. Today, I am updating one of my most popular blogposts.

Anyway, here goes…

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I used to call myself a Christian Wannabe. My wife likes to call me a “Closet Christian”, and she knows me better than anyone (28+ years together gives her that authority). However, the events of the recent US presidential election affected me more than I thought it would. Please note that my displeasure with the election is most certainly **not** political, it is a moral matter to me. Perhaps I am overreacting, but if being a Christian is what I saw in people in light of this election, if being a Christian is what I heard directly about this election and its result from people I know personally, I reluctantly conclude that I do not aspire to be a Christian anymore.

***I wrote the above paragraph in early 2017 and nothing has happened that warrants to reevaluate my position.***

Moving on.

I realize that the meanest attitudes and positions of some of these so-called Christians is most certainly not what Jesus taught, but nonetheless, I am hurt and disappointed at “Christianity” as practiced by some sectors of the United States, and as you may have noticed, I am not the only one.

For the last few days I made a conscious effort to hear the side of the evangelicals who voted for Mr. Trump. These conversations have made me realize that I will never feel the same about the evangelical church at large. Virtually every person of that persuasion that I have spoken to after the election has defended their choice unapologetically and with various degrees of enthusiasm, rationalizing their choice politically. Their responses ranged from the “They were both equally flawed” to the tired, “Well, the lord uses flawed people”, all the way to “Heck yeah!”, passing the dreaded “… but her emails…”.

Ugh.

Many people are treating this as if it were any other election, with equally bad choices for our country and **all** Americans, not just a fraction of us. Also, even in light of all the bad things that are happening worldwide as a direct consequence of the election of us, the American people, not a one, not a ONE of my former “churchfellows” has said to me: “Perhaps we made a mistake this time”.

Many of these people are very dear to me, and this makes me feel a despair that I haven’t felt in a long time. I feel spiritually homeless again.

Ot bears repeating that: ***I wrote the above paragraph in early 2017 and nothing has happened that warrants to reevaluate my position.***

Therefore at this point I am back to being a (very) hopeful agnostic, so there. Perhaps I never stopped being one.

What I have not stopped being is a scientist and a scholar with a deep love for knowledge and a profound admiration for the wonders of nature, so let me tell you a story that happened to me some time ago…

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I am a regular reader of a really good and thought-provoking blog, Science and Belief. Yes, it touches upon religion and spirituality, but the science is great and accurate, and the blog itself is also very entertaining.

See what I did there?

I wanted to illustrate the attitude of a significant fraction of my fellow scientists. It is no secret that the prevalent opinion of many scholars is that if people of science are believers or even spiritual, that belief kind of makes them “lesser” scientists. There are of course, several “levels of condescension”, related to this assessment from the disapproving, somewhat puzzled look to full-blown criticism. And that’s only the people who know you!

Then there are some people who do this type of thing “wholesale” in the sense that they direct their rage to no one in particular and to everyone at the same time. This is undoubtedly a minority, but a rather loud and pushy one. They are sometimes known as the “angry atheists” (AgAt), not to be confused with rational, thoughtful people who happen to be atheists. By the way, even though this is not the main topic of this post, I want to state that angry theists are as bad as AgAts and are much widely known. Alas, this is a topic for another day.

Anyway, some AgAts are private citizens and yet others are high-profile thinkers, scientists, writers, etc. Amusingly, many of them passionately declare their sense of wonder about nature’s beauty while in the same breath loudly denouncing the very same awe and wonder that others feel just because these others happen to credit a higher power for this beauty. The really extremist ones display an all-or-none attitude, meaning that in their view, if one does not fully embrace what they believe (and yes, it is a belief) in their entirety, well, one is completely wrong and rather “intellectually inferior” (and this is when they are trying to be polite, imagine those who do not even try).

I find this attitude hilarious, since when angry atheists do that, they are doing EXACTLY the same thing that many extremist religious people do. In fact, some time ago a group mainly formed by angry atheists initiated a (sorry, but it is what I think) ridiculous movement to actually try to call themselves “Brights” instead of atheists. Have you seen in movies depictions of a tree house with a sign saying “no girls allowed“? I actually imagine one with a sign that says “no dims allowed“, and yes, the brights do exclude from their club anyone that does not strictly subscribes to their philosophies. As a group, they actually think that those excluded are fundamentally “dumb” or “dims”.

I’ll stop talking about them “Brights” now.

I have to tell you that I am a churchgoer (and I don’t just drive by it, I actually go in and try to listen. ***Note: Please see above***). True, there are times when what it is said at church rubs me the wrong way with various degrees of coarseness. For example when religious thinking is deliberately mixed with partisan politics; don’t even get me started on that!

… breathe in …. breathe out …

Ok, I’m back.

And then there are other times when things REALLY drive me up the wall. A few months ago my wife came back from Sunday School and told me that she was happy that I was not there because they talked about “Intelligent Design”. She was right for being happy for me; if I’d been there, well, let’s just say that I am not fond of the concept of intelligent design, however well-meaning many (although not all) of the people who advocate for this mechanism are.

As I said, I am a churchgoer (**Again, see above**); what I did not say is that I elect to go there not because I believe; actually, I go because I do not know what to believe. I am searching, and I think that this is something that will be within me all my life. Let me put this in a different way; the “section” of my mind that deals with belief (this is a metaphor; I am not talking as a neurobiologist now) is constantly cycling through three basic states:

Sometimes I am ABSOLUTELY SURE that there is a God.
Sometimes I am ABSOLUTELY SURE that there is not.
Oftentimes I have no idea what to think.

Furthermore, there is a good probability that yourself, dear reader, are like that too. You may stay proportionally more time in one place versus the other compared to me or others, but you may “cycle” nonetheless (I apologize in advance if you feel that I pretend to know what goes on in your mind; I do not even know what I am thinking half the time). Anyway, I strongly suspect that this also applies to declared atheists (angry or otherwise). I am reasonably sure of that because we are all human. Also, again, NO ONE is privy to the absolute truth.

Please note that I am not advocating for or against religious/spiritual thinking; that’s precisely my point; I do not claim to have any special knowledge in the matter. I just do-not-know!

But I hope, oh boy, do I hope!

I used to have very interesting conversation on science and faith with a departed friend and colleague. He and I agreed that when someday we meet “the guy upstairs” we’d ask so many questions! I hope he leaves some questions for me to ask…

Back to topic, why do angry atheists make me a little angry? And what does it have to do with the Science and Belief blog?

Because an angry atheist (or theist) at his/her worst is essentially, a bully, no more, no less.

I came to that realization when reading the Science and Belief blog. One of their posts (never mind which one) made me smile and think something like “Wow, God really makes cool things“, and decided to write something about it right here in Baldscientist. I immediately stopped cold by thinking, “What if someone attacks me or insults me if I write a post on that? Would they think of me as a second class scientist/scholar?“

And then I realized, rather shockingly, that I was being bullied long-distance by a hypothetical angry atheist, someone who certainly will not know me at all. By anticipating a negative response from a still unwritten post of mine and deciding against writing it because of that, I allowed one of the most despicable types of people in the world (bullies) to get in my head and albeit very briefly, control my thoughts.

Anyway, I do not know where my search will lead me, whether some day will I completely believe or disbelieve, but it does not matter, because the outcome of my search will not change my true scientific and professional capabilities.

Therefore, I hereby state that I will not be bullied any more by angry atheists, period.

…Or by any angry theist, let’s not forget that.

(:-)

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